hi i cant tell you my name for this is my secretangrysickblog so you can call me whatever you like i’m awful and a polysexual demigirl she/her pronouns are kool hbu? i’m seventeen( ????????) years old and it scares me because i’ve always thought i would die before i reached 25 ive always been bad at writing about and defining myself the image i have of what i am is so damaged and constantly warping i dont know whats real and whats lies anymore i hardly feel like an actual human the uncomfort i feel living in this body physically hurts it feels like it is trying to reject whatever terrible thing is inside(: i dont know how long ive been so sad but i dont really remember ever not feeling upset the only strong emotions i can remember from my childhood are fear and boredom i m not cut out for anything i think more about being murdered than my future nowadays i dont have any hobbies anymore but i like to drink and fantasize about making horror films my moon sign is my mother’s sun and thats another thing that really really terrifies me i haven’t left the house in a while bcz i am disturbed by the idea of people being able to look at me when im not entirely sure what i look like i hardly ever dream anymore and it makes me think my brain is not my own i honestly feel dead half of the time but ghosts are supposed to go to heaven when they realize theyre ghosts
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